《爱》之苏醒

此时此刻的我面对着以往的文章。重新去阅读、体会、了解失去记忆前的我。
其中一篇文章吸引了我。原来在我脑海里，众人喧哗背景的倒数声不是梦，而是真真实实地发生了。原来这是我最初的记忆。
在那一幕模糊的片段里，我记得茫然、不舍、心碎与憎恨。
但是，记忆里的男孩…是谁？

我失忆了1年8个月26天。感激科技的发达与社交网站的帮助，我找回了很多的“朋友”

《爱》 - 2012

“让我们来一起倒数2012年的到来!10, 9, 8, 7, ...”
收音机说2011年要结束了。穿着白袍的他叫我删除所有2011年以前的记忆。而我的意识早已在倒数前模糊不清。
“6,5,4, ...”
“记得回来找我。”
就在数到“3”时，他紧紧握着我的手说要记得回来找他。但是要去哪里找？
“2, 1! Happy New Year!”
收音机里传出人潮兴奋地欢迎新一年的到来。但男孩落下泪来，目送着女孩进入一束闪耀的白光里。

My first ever short Chinese novel! I was just very inspired to start something new to make another entrance of daily life record. I guess the "Blogmics" was not a very good medium for me to continue on the blogging routine. Instead of drawing, I tell stories by delete my pass memories and recreate it with new perspective view with blank memory.
The story line will be stick to the theme which is "Love". Some characters I create are just simply to make stories interesting, but also most characters will be create based on reality.
Good grief, I am so PUMPED OUT now to do more of novel stuff. Stay tuned!

Baby Languages

I did a little survey among my friends.
Surprisingly, there are still a part of us keeping the language that used to talk with family who understands it.
AKA Baby Languages.
I am trying to capture people talks in different ways or specific words that we don't usually understands.



First Picture
My Chaoz Family always say '拜佛佛' (bai ho ho) means pray to Buddha.
P/S: My family are Buddhist.

Second Picture
There was a time May and I go to eat the Herbal Jelly.
When she suggested to have a bite of the delicious dessert, she said: I want to eat '动一摇'(tong-yi-yao).
Well, this terms have to say faster so you can get a clearer picture.
Raise up your hand if you like to call Herbal Jelly as Tong-Yi-Yao.

Third Picture
I knew this from my college friends, Kai Li, when we was discussing the script of drama for English.
First, I was shocked and confused of the 'strange' words.
Then, I found it quite adorable and easy to say.
'嘎嘎戏'(ka ka xi) means horror movie or the vampires/zombies movie.
A cute way to describe your nightmare.

Forth Picture
A very common word to trick infancy's smiles.
Can be describe a person's IQ like:
This dummy needs to be treat like 'Ang Gu Gu'.
This dummy needs to be treat like baby.

See, baby language are cute isn't it?
Except for the last example, I am lame to put that.
Try to list down your baby language and share it.
I am curious and exciting to see your version of language.

-Peace-

Future is a mist for now

Day after day, I am learning to be cope well in any circumstances.
In results, it turns out that I am becoming more numb to what around around me.
I pretty sure that my brain is rusting somewhere and it doesn't get 'juicify' by the correct lubricant.

About college assignments, I just need to arrange my time more systematic.
About friends, I just have to blend in and be humble.
About 7 sisters, I just have to solidify our already never fade friendship.
About family, there is not much I have to worry.

Now, circle back to future.
I am a failure to choose my path correctly.
I should become an ecologist. I just knew it.
I just have to work harder to make the world in peaceful green scenery scientifically.
This was my biggest dream ever since having the knowledge about the earth is dying.
But, to enjoy study in a lazy and comfortable school life, I chose the easy way to pass through the exams with flying colors, to be an ICT student.
I was regret, then no, and at last so much.
Then, move on to after graduate life.
I met a higher education counselor and he recommended me to study Interior Design.
I was so into his speech about the imaginable bright future with the path of being a designer.
It was so wrong. It clouded my soul to be wise.
And now, I am just a very ordinary person with 'so so' designs starting the journey to an unfamiliar artistic world with Da Vinci, Van Gogh and Picasso.

My dream?
Was once to imagine my life centralize with family when I had him.
Now?
Just a very heavy mist in front since I am so numb to the surrounding.
But one thing for sure, I must contribute my knowledge to society one day.
And I just knew that I can do it.

I Am Not Ready *Lyrics*

Since the first time I met you,
Never thought that we will be this close.
In very very limited time,
Goddess of Love brought us together.

Who knows what the future hold?
After so long we're ready to meet the end.
Thank you for being important role of my life.
So this love has clear up my mind..

To be Strong and mature,
For being a stronger better woman.
To be protective and wiser,
For choosing a better man to love.

I miss the days we sang of love.
I miss the ways you compliment me.
I miss the warmth through holding hands
And the hugs that you given to me.
I miss the days meant to celebrate.
I miss the ways you teasing me.
I miss of how you say how much I love you.

I am still not ready..

To be Strong and mature,
I just wanna to be your only one.
To be Protective and wiser,
I just wanna save the memories of you.

I am still not ready..
To give up our love tomorrow.

I am still not ready..
Because I'm still love you so deep.

Thank you for being part of my life.
So this love has clear up my mind.

*This song was wrote for my passed away love last night. Sincerely wish you to be the best in the future.

The way to treat your boyfriend if you serious

I very concern of everything about my sisters. Especially for Yangy who is enjoying sweet 17 and her boyfriend who is teenage-adult 18.

So, I decide to write some advices for the girls that is totally in Pinky Love world. I believed that you should treat boyfriend like the way you treat your family once you confirm he is the one. Ignore this post if you not ready to start a serious relationship with boy.

In my opinion, he is your future husband after all. Treat him as your family is the most basic thing. Example, you and him vowed deeply there is no lies and trust each other sincerely. Well, this is same to family. Keep no secrets with them. Just tell the truth about where you went, what you did with him and etc. Is this hard? What if your future husband, the one will be YOUR family, lie to you in future like the way you lie to your parents?

Next, check the call list in your cell phone. Compare your calls with boyfriend and family. Ask yourself this question: "How long you didn't call your family this frequently as your boyfriend?" Well? You can spend the most of the phone credits for boyfriend. Why not family?

The most important advice to guys: give your girl the "girlfriend priority". Show her how much you care, concern and importance about her in your life all the time. Put her FIRST above of everything, if it is really important thing to do as the main subject, explain to her slowly and i believe she will understand.

The opinions above are totally from my perspective about how to treat your boyfriend. No offense. Comment about this post and share your ways to treat your boyfriend or girlfriend. Thanks for view. ^^

我被科技电击了

SPM后的生活，应该从考完华语试卷那一天说起吧。
我和Samantha, Nicole相约一起去理发。
而留了四年长发的我决定把头发给剪短了！
我很喜欢短发造型。清爽，中性化，不会担心头发会开衩。更重要的是我也把负担给剪了。

接下来的日子过得令我不满意。
我失去了如何自律过个充实的假期。
我也失去了以往对事情的认真与热诚。

就这样让自己堕落。
沉迷科技带来的方便。
Facebook,Youtube, Google, Flash512
这几个网页足以让我对着电脑至凌晨。
更恐怖的是Plants VS Zombie完全可以让我脱离现实世界。为了破关斩将达到更高的Level，我不惜健康和牺牲睡眠时间，得到最后王牌。
太不自律了…

Home Sweet Home

I LOVE MY HOME!
Still don't feel like moving yet.
Maybe I can't give up live too far from you.
Maybe this house filled with loads of different memory.
Maybe this is the only place I feel safer.

Taurus LOVES to be safe.
And of course, LOVE A LOT delicious delicacies.
That's why I'm fat ever since stop exercising like half of the year?
I cannot stop eating delicious cuisines like Japanese buffet, Tiramisu cakes, Wall's Selection ice-cream, Nyonya foods. . .
The cooks are great! And evil too.
Why they make the foods so tempting, aromatic, chewish and expensive at the same time?

Next, I very confuse in choosing my career path in future.
Should I be Interior Designer which earns more money but I less interested or Wedding Planner which earns less money but I feel useful?

P/S: That's my drawing of home. This is the new style I mentioned. Like it?

New Style of Butterflyinmilky coming soon

So sorry to let you guys wait my update SO LONG!
After finish SPM, I let myself get into very hardcore comfort zone.
I was enjoying Lagoon trip with the girls, skating with my boyfriend, receiving ang paos from relatives, working with my parents as OL (office lady) and surfing Internet almost like everyday.

So, talking about having new style of me in this blog.
I want to make something really special with my small talent.
Hope you guys like it.

结束是另一个新的开始

11112010
是一个容易记的好日子。
但是，这一天也将是我们毕业的一天。
平时都是我们这些小的看学长们（学长这个词的意思是Senior）的毕业。
现在是我们的时刻了。
轮到可爱的小瓜们看我们离开。

来一个回忆录吧！
初中一：
刚刚进入校园，头发还保留着在益智华小时那个长度。
傻头傻脑的短发小瓜。
好玩，频有男生的气质。
主动向男生出击，过了中二后才知道自己瞎了眼。那男的不值得我的爱。
初中二：
当上了学长，因此人缘变广了。
从一个素不相识的友族，因一个意外的玩笑，变成彼此初恋情人。
同一年认识了现任男友。
名列前茅，终于考上了第一班。
思想不成熟，也变成了曾经的Playgirl一族。
初中三：
PMR年，压力很大的。
第一次靠到Fail，而且是国语。
超级花心女。
还好有8个月单身时期。
顺利考过PMR。
高中四：
爱想，爱玩。
因爱想；造就另一个我。
因爱玩；成绩大不如以前。
也因这样，我变得更加成熟。
高中五：
未定

我不知道那时我会不会掏出纸巾拭去泪水挥别这所学校。
我不知道当年画的壁画是否会存在。
我不知道大家会不会忘记我们一起创下的第一个《梦·起点》。
我不知道这一切会不会随着我们的离开而消失不见。

本篇灵感来自我的计算机。那天看到原有我的名字的计算机淡去了。惊觉发现这部机不知不觉陪了我5年。很快的就要说再见。计算机会陪我过完5年中学生涯，我会带着你们给我的记忆过完一生。

Blah Blah Blah....

Study for SPM
Left 33 days for Dooms Days!
I'm so weak in Chemistry and English.
I scored a C in English.
How come?!

Lovey Dovey
Daydreaming...
Past, Present and Future.
We were fought and argue somethings.
We are still together.
We will be happily forever after. <3

Friendship
I was so mean and what I did is so damn childish.
Why not cherish and foster the relationship between friends for this senior year?
After all, I might not meet everyone after graduate from this school.
I love you girls! <3
Friendship forever!

Conclusion
Get the best for what you want and what you need!

Target
5A's and 5B's in SPM
Be a character like Yui-chan
Wedding Planner

P/S: Yui-chan is an anime character in K-ON. She is a guitarist and vocalist in a band. I going to have a short cute hair and a guitar like her. ><

麻烦又来了

我很讨厌自己。
要读书了，还再浪费时间。
明知道自己怕输，不要被别人打败。我还那么爱把时间浪费在无情又有魅力的电脑上。

我总是这样。
踏出了第一步，第二步，第三步，又跑回第一步。
原因是什么？
因为我的第一步踏得不漂亮？
别人老早在终点回头嘲笑着你说：You are a MAJOR LOSER!!

我是一个彻底的失败者。
我还能熬出一个最佳的成绩来吗？
我是不是想着要读书到傻掉了？

I'm Back!

挥别部落格很久了。有想我吗？
真对不起。最近变懒了~ XP

由其是上一段的 post。
upload 到一半就变没了。
一个 video 就耗时了一个小时左右。
难免会等到灰心。

昨天，我过得很开心。
华文学会主办了一场动魄惊心的〈语文大挑战〉。
没参加这一项盛大节目的朋友，将失去很多认识我们的母语的机会。
也相信许多参加这项节目的朋友，过了一段难以忘记的跑战游戏。

这一次，是我第一次，也是最后一次当站长。
坦白说，我从没试过设计游戏。
一看之下，原来我还有很多还没学会，还没试过。
透过我的组员，我还有很多还没学习的。
Jeremy 的幽默，Louisa Kee 的周全想法，Yong Yin 的创意思想。
Whoa... 好多哦...

现在，我必须进入备战状态了。
SPM 在不久的几天即将来攻打我的城市了。
我需要多练我的‘士兵’。
就这样才能打出漂亮的一战。
加油！

2010年华语歌唱比赛

先给你们看看。稍后再 upload。


Kian Yeik & Yong Peng -- [满满]


Ming Kiat & Yong Yin -- [ ]


CCY & Chi Ling -- [厚脸皮]


Weesen & Wan Yeng -- [倒带]


Hooi Min & Jing Hui -- [男人女人]


Nicole & Teck Meng -- [挣脱]


Yangy & Ying Si -- ［心墙］

1st Medal from MSSD

I'm really kinda excited to talk about this. The netballers in our school won the 4th place in MSSD. ALthough we lost to those 'referee', but at least we got a medal. And it is my 1st MSSD medal ever!

I wanted to apologize that I didn't make my best to cheer for u girls. I don't really know the reason why my mood was so down at these 3 days. However, I seriously prayed to God for getting the best for u girls in this MSSD. I'm happy that it really works.

Girls are cool when play basketball, they turn to be elegant when play tennis, but girls are beauty, cool, gorgeous and smart when they fight for the best in netball. Let's reach for the fame for our school team netballers!



I admit that I was not very interest to this game. But the MSSD changed my point of view to it a lot. I love you girls too.

XOXO

出丑记

相信就读我校的学生们都知道----我出丑了！！

今早，身为巡查员的我如往常般站在小亭子那里，与平时一样抄下没带领带和迟到的同学名字（实际上我在那一天还没开始此任务）。当时我的心情有一点不好，因为有很多讨厌的蚊子咬我可爱的手手。突然，被一位平时做emcee的A巡查员叫住。由于A巡查员不舒服，她要求我做一天的临时emcee。

<轰隆轰隆〉

顿时我很错愕！毕竟我离做emcee这么一个恐怖的东西有一段距离了。这是一项很突然的任务，不得不完成。要么做，要么就被“斩” [我还年轻，前途的黑暗还等着我发光呢] 恰好该开周会的时间到了。我只好咬紧牙根，在A巡查员的领导下，用颤抖的手举起麦克风...

“Izinkan saya memulakan perhimpunan pada pagi ini. Yang dihormati ......”

顺顺利利的读完了这一句。接下来，第一个悲剧发生了...

“Majlis mengucapkan terima kasih kepada Puteri Divie......”

My God!! 明明是个男的，我把他的名字念成 Puteri! 出大丑了~ 他的名字应该是Putera Divie的。对不起。

说真的。太多的丑事发生了。我自认识一个五音不全，国语和英语念得咬字不清的残障人士。我想是时候要实行“多听，多讲和多写”计划以加强我在这一方面的残缺。

夜深了。很抱歉我只能草草带过这一篇文章。在此，我要下的结论是
我超级出丑了！！！

梦·起点

营，闭幕了。
庆功宴，结束了。
泪水不由自主地流干了。

相信大家都过得很愉快。筹委们再怎么辛苦都好，我们的努力最后换来一声赞扬，这样已经很值得了。每当我听到“没有那么简单”和“你们是我的星光”这两首歌的时候，我都会情不自禁的想起你们。这两首歌就在分享会之前很有默契的播出。当时 Nicole 还没说话之前，我的眼泪已经在眼眶里打滚了。

在K房的最后半个小时里，我们拥抱和哭泣。没想过男生们潇洒的为《梦·起点》献出珍贵的男儿泪。想到即将在不久的日子里和大家分开，难过与不舍的心情总会在这个时候涌上来。还是留一点泪在毕业典礼上吧！

我爱《梦·起点》！愿能第二届与你们同聚。

华文学会生活营

YES! 终于可以真实体验当筹委的滋味了！
往往参加很多 camp ，但是从来没有体会过当筹委的滋味。

也许路途艰辛，充满泪水和汗水；
或许会拥有不在控制范围内的不如意，
无论如何，这一届的生活营已经开始了。

一定要以积极和乐观的心理思想把生活营办成，
创下学校有史以来最快活，最成功的活动。
同时也为自己留下最后一片彩色的中学生涯回忆。

各位筹委们，营员们，老师们，朋友们
一起加油！

2010 --- A new Anti "you know who"

Screaming!
After wake up from the holiday, many things have change!
I'm 17! Form 5! Old!!
I don't know whether u guys have the feeling like this..

The craziest part is the new PK in school try to make a revolution.
"Pakai uniform dengan kemas. Jangan merayau-rayau. Sila pakai pakaian yang sopan apabila di luar kawasan sekolah."
What the Hell! Our attire ourside the school also want to control?
This is the revolution u mean?

Haiz.. Be passion for 1 last year! Must make my last year in school happy and enjoyable. Smile~

我要去学开车了！

前提：谢谢各位给我的鼓励。我会撑下去的！

Ya Hoo! 我已经在 Perfect 的蒲种分店注册了名字。这个星期六（26-12-2009）去听课。好像是什么 KPP 的课程。我打算在星期三（30-12-2009）考试。

接着，在我17岁生日过后就要正式学开车了。好兴奋哦~

妈妈也赶在明年的 Proton 车起价以前，买了一辆新款的 Proton Saga。*呜 - 虎 -* 我有车了！

p/s: 此车要在自己有工作以后供回的。